Break Up Letter - Imitation

To the past,

I am better at forgiving than holding onto a grudge for life, for I remain at peace with what I'm aware won't last me an eternity. As flooded as my heart seems, I somehow find myself floating with no sign of drowning.

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I am not lamentable. Rather bejaminifed, and I find myself still trying to grasp that you have come, stayed, and left, with the sole purpose of leaving your fingerprint on this wound that'll eventually heal. I think (hopefully). I would like to tell you one thing before I finish typing, then you shall not see any text of mine saved in your drive again, I promise.

Why must you have dried up, turned grey, stuck to the ground, gotten stepped on, and faced all kinds of weather at the same spot for who knows how long? I'm sure you had planned, manifested, prayed for it to have gotten to this extent, for the satisfaction of your game. The more aware I become of the condition of life, the more I've found it difficult to understand how someone could be so sadistic.

Yet, the memory of you lingers, for far too long. And as much as I like to blame you for my errors, I'm no different. We lived in different times, with different ideologies, with a distinct consciousness. We still regret what we've done and cling to the worst memories much more than the best, and, if we were to cling to the best, then nothing new could ever compare to it.

Perhaps, this comes to you with a negative note:

The human condition changes, but not its principles.

Our situation is the condition, and we, the principle. But you seemed to have forgotten that I could purposely remove these pieces that remind me of you, choosing not to accept or acknowledge them. And if that's what it takes to break these barriers you seem to love to frame, then so be it.

Take that as you will.

Yours truly, 

Your future.

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(Imitation of Simone de Beauvoir's Breakup Letter)